Doesn't it feel as though we went from Labor Day to Christmas in about 24 hours?!?! I'm suddenly overwhelmed and amazed at how quickly this year is coming to a close. I don't want this year to end - I've liked 2007. It's been a good year for us - good because we identified things that needed to be changed and actually did something about them. My husband might disagree with me, but it's all been for the better. And don't get me wrong - it's been hard a lot of the time - financially, emotionally, and even physically. When you decided that your house needs to be changed, your financial situation needs to be changed and your relationship needs to be mixed up a bit even, it's hard. But, we were bogged down by everything and it was all too stressful - we were stuck in a rut. A lot of ruts. And changing is hard to do. But, looking back on it from the other side is sooooooo wonderful!
Part of my philosophy over these past few months has been to just act. Whenever I felt like complaining about something or something felt too difficult, I would remind myself to just act. Don't talk about doing it, don't plan doing it, just get up and take some action. And it's worked. We're redoing the house, I've helped our financial situtation by going back into the legal field and increasing my profits from photography, and our marriage has definitely gotten fun again. Oh, and I've lost 22 pounds - that was part of a huge goal for me. And, like everything, it's all ongoing. But, we have goals now and we're acting. And I like it!
I'm starting to feel the pressure and stress and total panic about the holidays and I haven't slept well in over a week because of it. So, I'm reminding myself that my goal is to have a fun holiday - I want to take time to decorate the house nicely, do some Christmas crafts, do some Christmas projects with the kids, find some time for Tom and I to go shopping together, bake cookies, and really relax and enjoy the season. But, I'm overwhelmed with deadlines and panic about not having enough time. So, I'm going to have to just act. I don't like this feeling right now. I think I need to meet these deadlines early and get them off my plate so that I can feel free to relax and enjoy the holidays.
And, no need to comment - this post was really just a note to self. :)
