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I'm just too tired to do anything more. Re-entry is always really hard for me. It takes me a week or so to adapt to life back at home. I think there's some grieving that goes along with saying good-bye to family and home knowing that it will be a year before I go back. I don't sleep well and am very unmotivated until I adjust to life back at home.
I do promise to edit photos and blog about vacation soon, but I just found out that we are having a houseguest this weekend through next Tuesday. I had planned on traveling to visit family over the weekend but it looks like my house will be the destination instead. I'm giving myself another day or two to be sluggish but then it will be non-stop cleaning mode around here. :p
The photo above is one of my favorites from our trip. The first full sunny day we had we spent down at the beach at our cabin. We swam and played in the water all morning, had a picnic by the water and then the girls and I came back up to the cabin at low tide. Tom and Andrew took a nap on a warm rock for about an hour and I was able to snap this photo before they woke up. :) And, for those who asked, yesterday's photo was a schooner that sailed by our cabin right after a storm.
This photo was taken from our bedroom window of the cottage we stay in every summer in Maine. It is truly a slice of heaven on earth. And in only 5 1/2 weeks, we will be back there. I wait all year for our two weeks spent there and I'm starting to think that I enjoy the month leading up to the trip almost as much as the trip itself. The anticipation, the excitement, the kids jumping up and down as they watch the calendar getting closer and closer - it's all just magical.
First, though, we have to get through the end of school. Next Thursday is our last day and I think I'm as excited as the kids are for them to be done.
And now, an entirely different subject:
I've been debating about putting this last bit on my blog for the past couple of days. My first thought was to not say a thing because it would seem overly dramatic and draw too much attention to myself. My second thought was that it's my blog and who the hell cares - if it helps to write about it, then write about it. And then I've come to the conclusion to write about it for an entirely different reason. I've told a select few people and have been astonished by how many women have had the same experience. I just had no idea how many women have gone through this. And it helped sooooooo much to hear them talk about it. So, if you have any support, prayers, or happy stories to share with me, I would love to hear them!
So, what the heck am I even talking about? Well, I found a lump in my breast on Sunday. It's rather large and, of course, I'm scared. I called my doctor immediately yesterday morning. The soonest they can get me in for a diagnostic mammogram is Thursday. We went round and round with a couple of different offices and even some stand alone imaging centers and no one can see me any sooner than that. So, I'm sitting here waiting. And hoping. And trying to stay as positive as I can. 80% of all lumps are benign - I know that. If I'm totally honest, though, I will admit that it feels as though I'm living in a fog. Stef advised me to stay very busy and that is helping a lot! I've tried to scrapbook and simply can't. That goes into a different part of my brain that I don't want to go into right now - the creative, emotional side of me. So, I'm going to stay busy and work on some household chores and do lots of kids' events over the next week or two. And if you have any thoughts about things that would help while I'm waiting, I would love to hear them. :)
I've been saying for years that I would do a mini-album about our annual vacation in Maine and I finally did it! I documented the whole trip - starting with the 2-day roadtrip (which is one of our favorite parts of the whole thing!) and I made sure to include photos of my brothers and their families who travel to Maine to be there with us.
I used the black and cream Creative Imaginations Easel Album and added lots of other pages to it. I used some Hambly transparencies as pages, a 7gypsies tag as a page, 4 x 6 photos as individual pages, and lots of Making Memories Noteworthy journaling tags as pages. I stuck with 3 basic colors - the black and cream obviously, and then added lots of blue. I also stamped a lot - I rarely stamp on my layouts, but I love the way it personalizes mini-albums.
This album has a ton of pages - here's just some.
I finally found some time to go through our vacation photos. Sigh. If only we were still there.
First, some pictures of the view from our cabin. This first one is the view from our bedroom window. The next two were taken from the porch.
One of our favorite places to visit is Acadia National Park - we stay very close to there and we bike through trails, go up the Mountain to see the amazing views, and find wild blueberries.
And lots and lots of time spent playing with cousins and eating very yummy food!
And, finally, our favorite thing to do - go down to the beach in the evenings after low tide and build a bonfire and make s'mores. :)
I'm not going to have much time to edit and post photos for another couple of days. Darn work gets in the way of everything. :p
But, I did look at my photos briefly and thought I'd leave you with these 3 for now. They are SOOC shots, so apologies for lack of editing, but I don't have much time.
Here's our side yard at the cabin in Maine.
And here's the back yard. :)
And here's me and my wonderful Grampie. He's 91 years old and still mourning my grandmother daily. A little note - the glasses he wears every single day are her glasses. During her last year of life, somehow they kept mixing up their reading glasses and they would both laugh about it and switch back. Since her death 3 years ago, he's only worn her glasses. The picture is totally out of focus and it's one of my favorite photos ever.
We had virtually no internet service on vacation. And, I've complained and complained about it, but most of the time, it felt great. :)
I read a ton of books and sat on a rock by the ocean instead of surfing the net. Not a bad trade-off.
We're unpacking and cleaning and getting ready for a busy week ahead, but I'll try and post photos of the trip soon.
So much stuff going on around here that it's hard to even know where to start. So, a quick recap of a lot of little things.
Our trip home from Maine was very long, but thankfully uneventful after I got hit with the bike rack. And, as dh has been calling me, "Scarface" is slowly fading and I can pretty much cover it up with makeup now. I've been living with neosporin slathered all over my face and it's really working. I'm still working on uploading pics from our trip, but I'm also scrapping some already. Priorities, ya know! :)
The vacation itself was actually one of our best vacations that we've ever taken and we're very sad to be home. However, we've been so busy that it's hard to be focus on the sadness. I just wish we lived closer to family.
My first assignments for ScrapSupply go out in the newsletter on August 1st and I'm terrified. I know I'm putting the pressure on myself, but it's still scary. But, I'm loving every single minute of it. :D I've also had a couple of layouts picked up by CK and ST and that's fun, too. And, my absolute favorite digi site chose me to be the Featured Artist of the Month (scroll down to the bottom), so it's been an awesome scrappy month.
Elizabeth's med levels are STILL not high enough. Sigh. I had to talk the neuro into upping her dosage again. The neuro said that if she wasn't having any symptoms that we could just stay at this level. Um, no, I don't think so. It's the same darn level she was at when she had this last seizure. I realize that we've upped her dosage, but if it's not changed the med levels in her bloodstream, it's still not enough. Hello! I hate having to stay on top of the doctors. It just seems crazy to me that she would keep Libby at this same level.
Emily's lab work came back as okay, so she's fine for now. Her next appointment at the Children's Hospital is in September and that's that. Aside from having to save her own life because her own parents didn't see her choking, anyway. :p I will have nightmares about that for the rest of my life. I have banned all ice cubes from the house. NOT kidding.
Sheesh - school orientation is August 23rd. Where does the summer go? We've actually started buying school supplies already because we waited until August last year and everything was gone already. :p Emily wants a University of Texas backpack this year and her father is grinning from ear to ear over that one!
Oh my gosh, Movie 5 is awesome!!!!!!!! Emily and I absolutely loved it and she's already gone to see it a second time with a friend. She doesn't know it but I'm going to take her to see it again, too, because I want to see it a second time. And need I even mention what happens on Friday at midnight? I think not - but Em and I will be in line by 11 pm, I have a feeling. :D
I think this is going to be remembered as the summer of family. We spent time with Tom's biological family in Texas, time with my Dad in Texas, time with my mom, both brothers, many cousins, and grandparents in Maine, lots of time with my sister-in-law and her kids here, too, and now my Dad and his wife are headed up here to stay with us next week and then we're going to go and visit my grandmother and aunts and uncles at the end of next week. Love all these times! But, once again, I get the sad thing because we don't actually live near any of them. Gotta work on that issue. It's been bothering me for a couple of years now, so I really have to come up with something.
Whew - if you made it this far, thanks! I'm way behind on emails due to all of the above stuff, but I'm slowly catching up. :)
Postcards from Maine - and I do mean that literally. Here's a couple of postcards from our gorgeous little cabin on the coast of Maine. I think we have found heaven. The first picture is of the sunrise the first morning we were here - I gasped when I woke up and saw it. The other pics show our lawn and the steps leading down to the water and Andrew at the water's edge. It is so beautiful that it feels as though I'm living inside a postcard and I want to keep pinching myself.
And speaking of pinching myself, being selected as the newest member of ScrapSupply also has me pinching myself! I'm totally thrilled and couldn't be more excited - can't wait to get home and get started!